Nov 19, 2011

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Anthony opened up to me last night.

After he gave me the blessing and said the baby would be healthy, he looked at me and said, “Jen, she can still have Down syndrome and be healthy.” At the time, I thought he was just worrying too much and I told him she would be fine.

Then yesterday I was talking to my aunt, who is one of the most positive people I know. When I told her about the blessing and that it said the baby would be healthy, she responded with almost the exact same thing Anthony had said:

“She can still be healthy and have Down syndrome.”

I thought it was a little strange that both of them immediately thought the same thing. These are not people who normally jump to the worst-case scenario or worry before there’s a reason to worry.

After seeing the first ultrasound and watching her move around, I completely fell in love with her… and I know Anthony did too. So no matter how she comes into this world, she is already very wanted and will be very loved.

When Anthony finally opened up more, he told me he wasn’t worried about whether we would love her. She is already loved. What he worries about is the world. He worries about her being limited or feeling trapped in a body that might make life harder for her. He wants her to experience everything life has to offer — all the joys, accomplishments, adventures, and even disappointments.

Basically, he’s already being exactly what a father should be… worrying about his little girl.

I reminded him again about the odds and tried to stay positive. Hopefully after the next ultrasound the chances will go down and we won’t have to think about it anymore.

For now, we are hoping for the best while preparing ourselves for the unknown.